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Hi.

I think i have figured it out at last.

I have no choice but GATE pretty much. I am going to believe in myself.

FUCK being given an opportunity. I am making it for myself. IDC. I am giving it my best without care for what happens at the end. At least this way I would die with no regrets.

Maybe thinking about regrets while dying is too early, but still, i wouldn’t have no regrets in the next 5 years.

Nikhil messaged this in the group today which really resonated with me.

If you have a sense of entitlement to the result, then lack of it will beat your spirits and you’ll obsess more over it than your work And even worse trap is doing nothing because results aren’t guaranteed.

I am rereading this everytime I even feel a tinge of that shit happening to me.

This is definitely one of my biggest weaknesses.

Also regular journals start from tomorrow!!!!

Tomorrow will be the start of a new era hopefully.

(I apologise for the overdramatization and usage of word era, but I am reading kingdom right now and yes its fucking amazing. Reread it if you are reading this in the future. You will enjoy it i am sure i bet yessssirrrrrrr.)

OK Goodbye for now. I am hyped for tomorrow.

Also the polygon thing results should be out soon. To be fair at this point after stressting the fuck out for multiple days over it and things that happened today. IDGAF if i get accepted or not.

(Though it would be pretty sweet if i did.)